SSS - Super Selos Syndrome

Most Filipinos say that women are naturally "selosa". Well, i know a lot of girls out there would disagree that this trait, which is the equivalent of being jealous in English, is not something to be proud of.

I just feeling like writing about this topic because I feel that I have the SSS. I realized recently that I easily get jealous of other girls that go near my special guy. Not just go near actually, but when he appears to be interested or mentions a name of a girl during our conversations, i would readily react violently.

I know it's not healthy for me to feel that way. I actually confessed it straight to him that I get easily pissed off when he mentions certain situations wherein a girl appears to be attracted or interested in him. I know that this SSS is a personal issue that I have to work on.

I tried to evaluate myself and tried to find the cause of this syndrome. Well, mostly it's because of my past relationships. 1 or 2 found another girl "better" than me, or it's because i just think negatively of myself. I need to boost myself and think positively of my guy. Like I always tell him, I trust him, but I don't trust all the other girls out there. Haha! Most girls can get a man if the want to but it's still the man's decision if he will fall for the trap or not.

Anyway, I'm going out of the topic already. If you've read this blog, maybe you can post any tips on how to lessen my SSS and stop being selosa!

Mark John D. | mmark

It's the name of my first childhood crush. It's also the 2 most famous names in the bible. It's the name of a friend in gg (game platform) and also the name of the person who saved my heart.

When you search his name in google (with his last name, of course), you will get a link to page announcing to an LG contest involving Ragnarok. =)

Mmark is his account name in gg or garena and we've been "buddies" for more than a year. We first knew each other in a game called DOTA, a map in warcraft and TreeTag. He constantly says hi in ym and in the game platform but i was too busy to even reply. I didn't know what I was missing 'till that one day we had time to chat.

Why am I talking about this name? Simple. Because it belongs to a person who has made me love again. He has shown me another reason to breathe, another reason to live my life at its fullest and I want to thank him for that.

Though we're still exclusively dating I can feel our genuine concern for each other - and that's important. He has taught me a lot of things (though he apparently doesn't know that) and I'm still learning. I guess the number of past relationships is not really proportional to one's "relationship IQ". I am an example.

I'm hoping that this relationship will grow and that we'll stay as loyal and as true to each other.
I wonder when will we be officially "in a relantionship"? =p