Unsolicited comments

Special thanks to people who place comments in my blog in friendster and in my profile. It goes to show that somehow there is something that struck them and they made conscious effort to type in some words and express themselves.

I'm writing this not with remorse or anger; rather with a big question mark in my head.

I have committed a lot of mistakes in the past that I chose not to regret. I could say that "I didn't know that he...", that "I knew but he insisted" and that I could have resisted to fall in love but I've fallen. I can honestly say that I displayed efforts or resistance to break but I just bended.

I knew there were people that will be hurt because I was hurt too. An affair is a product of selfish evil intentions. It's bad but sometimes it brings out so much good in you. I didn't break anything when I allowed things to happen. I bended.

I was going to say I'm sorry but I am having second thoughts. I would be a hypocrite if i said that I am giving my deepest apologies to the people who are mad at me. I am sorry in one way or another but not to them/you. Haha.

*Contradictions are exciting thoughts. Makes me fumble and jump from one idea to another.

This entry doesn't have much meaning. This is just a violent reaction to a comment posted in my friendster blog. I erased it by the way because it wasn't even meaningless. If you know what I mean. The one who wrote that must assess first what happened and not let prejudice rule her anger.

Gladiator in me

Sometimes I do what I want to do. The rest of the time, I do what I have to.

But now, I have awaken from a deep slumber and I will do now what I want and have to do.

It's been a long sleep and I've had enough rest.

Almost there

I failed the ALS admission examinations. My parents were so sad and I couldn't stop crying. I didn't know what to do. I was so devastated and almost lost my sanity. Then suddenly my phone alarm rang and I woke up. It was just a dream.

I was too engrossed in knowing if I passed or failed the exams and I was refreshing the admission results page of ALS almost every 30 minutes. I was at work then and I couldn't concentrate. 3pm came and I had to go home, still no results for the 2008 ALS admission exams.

I just couldn't get it out of my mind. Thinking if I don't pass, what would I do? What would I say to the people who believed in me? How about my parents? What would they say? Will I cry like a baby?

I went straight to my computer when i got home. The ALS homepage was already bookmarked in my browser so I just had to click it. When I clicked on the Ateneo Law School Admission Results link it was just blank and the lower left corner of the browser says DONE. I knew that it was already posted. I refreshed the page, my eyes just went straight looking for A... AR... ARU... I couldn't find it! I skipped a beat and then I saw a link that said for interview. My name was there! I didn't feel too good about it nor disappointed. At least I still have a chance... a chance to pass... or fail!

I'm halfway there. I just wish that I will know how to answer the panel. I don't want to impress them at all. Rather, I wish that they could see the potential in me and be able to fully assess my abilities. I want them to feel my eagerness to go into the Ateneo Law School and be a Lawyer someday.